Frustration.

I've come to the realization that relying on other people is a wasted action.

Hm...that sounds a little cynical...

But sadly that is something that I've come to realize. My naivete usually leads me to be much nicer, more lenient, and accepting of things that I'm realizing are not ok. My frustration extends to my own behavior, because I find myself giving advice to other people that I myself have difficulty following. 'Easier said than done' I suppose.

I'm tired. Tired of getting my hopes up, only for them to be unfulfilled time after time. Its not good for my sanity, to be honest, and I don't think I really deserve it. I'm intelligent, a nice person, I'm caring... I have a lot to offer.

But 2010 is a new year. Too many times I've realized that I care much more about people than they care about me. So now I'm making a change.

No more acceptance of silly shit. Its a new year, I'm turning over a new leaf. I'm getting further into my 20s and honestly, I'm too grown for it.

On to the next one!