The next step...

I'm lost.

And I'm frustrated that I'm lost because I feel like a part of it is my fault.

I feel like my dream is slipping away, and I have NO idea what to do to keep it here, and have it become a reality.

Why is talking about your whole life's goal so difficult?

You'd think it would be easy, especially since I've been programmed for it since kindergarten.

I'm lost, and I'm scared.

I'm terrified to fail at this.

Because if this doesn't work out, I don't know what else to do.

So what's my next step?

Who knows.